Friday, May 27, 2016

Music and Mumblings...

Sitting here relaxing tonight but my mind is going ninety to nothing.  So, I’m “writing it out” which is always a good thing for me.  I love to write and I can get a little wordy but isn’t that what authors do?

So, where to start tonight? 

Dr. Wayne Dyer.  He was an author and he said that if you do what you love, everything else will follow.  I believe him.  I  read all of his books and he never said anything that didn’t make complete sense to me.  He made me feel hopeful and good about myself and my spiritual path, which seemed to mirror his.  He transitioned last year and I sure miss his daily writings and reading him on Facebook and sharing his sage words of wisdom and motivation.  He may be on the other side but he is still here with me, a part of me because of the way I view life and because of how he touched my spirit.

He wrote about “manifesting your destiny” and I am working hard to manifest the destiny that I want in my final years before I, too, transition.  Before I can manifest, I have to get clear about what it is that I want.  Right now I am exactly where I need and want to be but I am dreaming and working toward manifesting the destiny I am dreaming.

I’m sitting here on my sofa on this Friday night and my little Chihuahua, Paco, is licking my leg right now which makes me giggle.  I love that little rascal so much.  He was, and is, one of my miracles.  I can’t honestly say I was expecting that miracle but God knows best and he brought him into my life and I’m so glad I was open to that miracle.  I’ve got a cold beer and I’m listening to Van Morrison radio on Pandora as I write.  Rambling Man by The Allman Brothers Band is playing and anyone that knows me knows that I absolutely love The Allman Brothers Band and Gregg Allman was supposed to be my next husband but he just never got the word.  “Blue Sky” playing now from the “Dreams” album.  Seems appropriate because I’m all about dreaming these days.

I’ve been divorced for 23 years now so I’ve been single almost as long as I was before I got married.  I was 25 and ready to be a wife and mother.  It was a dream and it happened.  Although I’m divorced I can honestly say I still love my ex-husband and we are good friends.  He is remarried and I like his wife and I am so happy that we can all be friends and have family get-togethers without any uncomfortable feelings.  We had our time and then, as Gregg Allman sang…it was time for moving on. We were together 20 years and three children came out of that time together and now we have seven grandchildren to share.  It was a good dream and I'm glad it became a reality.

Before the last two songs, “Landslide” by Stevie Nicks played.  That’s the song my son chose for us to dance to when he got married and I can’t hear that son without getting a little heart-twinge for so many reasons.  I was honored he chose that song and my son is one of my many, many blessings in this life.
I feel fortunate to have had, and still have, so many of my good friends in my life. “For What It’s Worth” by Buffalo Springfield playing now.  So much of my life I can relive in an instant just by hearing a song.  My life has been filled with music and it’s hard to separate living and music.  It’s a “my generation” thing I think.
Like I said, my mind is going ninety to nothing tonight and I’m bouncing around all over the place here, aren’t I.  Do you ever do that?

Since this is a 3-day weekend because Memorial Day is Monday, I’m going to spend time with my friends that live up in Dahlonega for the weekend.  I feel a little guilty because there is so much yard work and house work that needs to be done but I wouldn’t miss spending time with my friends because, at this point in my life, I realize the importance of not putting those things off. 

Three people who were very important in my life passed away last year.  My Mom, a dear friend and the person I thought was the love of my life.  I hadn’t seen my friend in a while and I’d always “been meaning” to call her and get together and then it was too late because she was gone.

“Can’t you see” by The Marshall Tucker Band from the “Searchin’ for a Rainbow” album playing now.  Wow, so much good music on this Van Morrison station.  Can you remember where you were when you first heard that song?  I can.  I remember a waterbed that the heater had gone out on and sleeping on blankets that would slip off and I’d be freezing my butt off by morning or so snuggled up next to Tim you couldn’t get a pin between us.  Good memories!

Anyhow, I’ve decided not to let an opportunity to spend time with a friend pass me by.  I’ve been on the go for the past five weeks and next weekend I’m promising myself a “down” week end when I catch up on some of the things I’ve been letting slide but I’ll think about that tomorrow, or next week or maybe I won’t even think about it until next Saturday or Sunday.  There are more important things to think about right now.

“If I Ever Needed Someone” by Van Morrison playing now.  It speaks to my heart and makes me want to get up and close my eyes and sway with the music.  His voice always does that to me.  Beautiful, instense, passionate Van Morrison.  There’s no one current who can compare.

“The Weight” by The Band now.  I guess listening to “my music” makes me remember my youth and the dreams of my youth.  I’m no longer young but I feel like I’m about to graduate again.  Retirement is a couple of years down the road and big changes are coming for me.  Good things are happening and every day I expect a miracle and I’m not disappointed. 

So, with that having been said, I’m going to get up and start doing a little light housekeeping and getting my stuff together to take off with Paco tomorrow.  My sister lives in the house right next to me and my neighbor on the other side is always watching my house AND I ALWAYS put a big bubble of Light around my house whenever I go away to protect it but I leave with no fear knowing I have people I trust looking out for me and for my home.

“Fortunate Son” by CCR playing now.  Takes me back to the days when I became an anti-war protestor, not that it did any good.  There’s more war in this world today than ever and it breaks my heart.  I still want to believe that we can all love each other and live in peace but I don’t see it happening in my lifetime.  It’s Memorial Day on Monday and I honor all those who served and if I let myself think on it too much, my heart gets heavy.  I don’t think I want to go there now.

I feel fortunate to have been born in the time and the place I was born.  Life has been good.  It hasn’t always been easy and I wouldn’t want it to be because if you don’t have sadnesses and make mistakes, how can you grow as a human being?  I believe I came here to grow spiritually.  I’m working on that every day.
I say good-night now while “Hotel California” by the Eagles is playing.  Oh California!  So many memories there but that’s for another day.


Expect a miracle and give thanks when you get it! Namaste everyone.

Don't Stop Dreaming!

Oh boy, do I have a dream. 

I'm a couple of years from retirement but I have started dreaming and planning for that day.  It is bubbling up inside of me and I feel like I am about to pop so I've decided I need to "write it out."

Having moved, often, in my life, I set a couple of life goals for myself.  One was to own my own home and I do.  One was to live in the same house for 10 years and as of September 2015, I reached that goal.  Another was to work at the same job for 5 years and as of May 23rd, 2016, I reached that goal, too.

Now, I'm ready for a new goal, a new dream.  I want to travel across the United States in a Little Guy pulled behind a small SUV I've yet to buy.  Well, I've yet to buy either but I've started dreaming and that's the first step to manifesting the reality.  I'm ready to sell my house and live free of debt and responsibility. But first, I have two more years of work ahead of me which should be just enough time to get my ducks in a row.

I'll blog more about my process because there is SO MUCH to be done before I hit the road with Paco, my little Chihuahua.  He will be an awesome traveling companion.

Also, after 23 years of being single, I feel like there's one last love in store for me and I will meet him when I hit the road.  He's there and I know it will be magic when we meet.  Hold on, I'm coming!

With that having been said, it's time for me to get back to my job! 

EXPECT A MIRACLE, BELIEVE IT CAN HAPPEN AND IT WILL!